A Reflection

One day, there is a girl with a brown eyes shape like almond, fair skin, pink lips, dark hair , average body ( took it from myspace lol ), she was 25 years old... She was staring out her window and think... While her hand playing with her book. A very classic one with a brown old cover and italic font.

It was a beautifull sunday morning. The sky is bright whil the bird was chirping and the wind was blew softly.... Her neighbour Ms. Clark was doing her garden, while her dog Sluppy were running along her son Tody to their front porch.
While she was thinking and smilling all by herself., she remember what happened last weekend when she and her group of  book club went to the beach. She knew that this guy was new. And he doesnt even have a very fair skin or atleast a cute face. But, when she just got to her room that night, she cant even forget about his voice especially his laugh.

And after the night over she cant even think about anything else other than prepared to work so she will look stunning as ever. And she even humming on her way to tube station. Despite that she really made anything looked like a coincidence. So that she can always be in the same place like he does.
Either she went to a copy room or she just passed through his desk, but she just made everything looked way so  ussual.
Untill one fair thursday she happened to have a lunch with her mate and his mate. So does she could talked and spent her lunch hour with him.

That sunday morning made her rethink all over again. Does she had falling again to the other guy that she didnt supposed to be? Since she had a fiancee already and ready to tie the knot on August?
But this guy quite fun ( as for herself ) he could made her laughing everytime and whatever he did it always made her feel a butterfly had flying in her stomach.

He doesnt even have a car, or a branded clothes to wear. He doesnt even have muscle. He doesnt even have a cute lips... But she likes him ....If she made some comparison to her fiancee, this guy are totally nothing. But he looked like very polite and caring. But and then she thought... Every men will do anything to get to woman panties. Her fiancee also did the same by the time he wanted to be with her.

But on the other hand she likes it , and she doesnt wanted to lose it. And suddenly she staring out her desk and she found a classic black mirror and she saw her face. Quite cute, not bad  more to perfect she thought.
Inside the mirror she could see her other face with a smiley face , but wait... she didnt even smile. But the one in the mirror was smiley a very wide smile.

And then she realize that the confusion she had was made by herself..... And now all she could see just her reflection in the mirror that smile or even laughing in front of her. And she looked very happy because she saw her other half outside the mirror who got dizzy with problems which made by her other half inside the mirror...

Cheers,
Sera

Another Case ???

Last January I've passed one difficult phase of my life... and now it comes the other chapter. Its very quite similar. But happens with different object..

Hello.... can I have Just a Normal feelings here ??? or atleast Just a normal Life pleaseee???
It happens again and again... it likes an addict ... very buggin ...

Yesterday I looked to a tiny rainbow... and it was very beautifull at the moment...And till now still wondering should I follow the path of the tiny rainbow which dunno where it ends but 1 thing for sure it just have short way to go.

I dont want to be the one who make mistake all over again ( and I quote " The same mistake" )
Last time I had this, it really gave me a very huge sensation which I found very fun. But at the end  it also gave me another guilty wave.

One day, I just yelled and said STOP  ( followed with exclamation mark- I meant the very large one )... but again I picked the wrong way.

Hope I could say " Okay... Im done with it, so let me hae my own Vodka here and let me alone .." and then continued by " thank you "....

BFF ????

Where should I have to begin....

Have u heard bout BFF ? well I got a confusing meaning bout this lately. Does BFF should be stand for Best Friend Forever or Be Fucked Forever?

I do love to communicate with others, love to hear their stories but also I love to do this story-telling thing ( I got to carried away sometimes ), and the result is I have few people who always there when I need to do this story-telling and they love to share their life with me.

But, somehow I dont know when it begun, they acted like they have their own story among them and Im the only one who doesnt know any  it ( is this a sign that I have to leave them ?? ).

Do not care actually , but it become bothering me when they suddenlly came out to the surface without their mask, ( well her actually Im talking about one of my friend here ).

She is an angel when the first years I knew her but bang suddenlly she just change after I knew her for around let just say 4 years. I can read her but I just dont care bout her lack of  morality. She's my friend anyway, but she started use me as a shield from any problems that will save her but on the other hand will help her to get what she wanted.

It was sucks I know, but what can I do... that already her habit and her character. I do not care anyway.

The question is ... should I continue this BFF thing ( sounds weird I know ) but Im a good person on the other hand tho... lol

Well, all I can say now just BFF just stand for Be Fucke Forever if I still trying to understand those kind of people and getting involve with them.... Plus there's no such thing called BFF which stand for Best Friend Forever. Kinda full of narcissism I know ( thats what one of my exs called me, lol ) But for now on I think I dont need any best friend at all both man or woman ( I got fucked by them several times already ).

Cheers,

Sera

Now

What happened with everybody lately... Everything went sooo weird a.k.a different. First thing first just thought maybe it caused by myself, or maybe something that appears on my surface.
Some are related with last year affair, so i can say it just the same shit and some are new.

Been dumped was one perfect sample. If you're been dumped by someone whom u hate it wont matter. But if u been dumped by someone whom u thought will always there when u need them that quite disappointing. Especially when u knew the reason that they had stabbed from your back. And u knew it after u feeling quilty almost every single day and every single minutes.

Got a thought,sometimes u take years to know people, like their character, habit, way of think but u just need few days to get over them. Well not almost everybody have the same thought like i did. But it works for me, and it really worth every penny .

A family stuff made me got emotional many times. This stuff way so annoying. I do prefer to life away from my family. I dont like the idea that mention family is everything. Coz they are way so disappointing me in every way.
I hate the condition that I do have bro and sister. They always want everything in their benefit but never care about mine.
And I do hate a statement said that family thing is always number 1 but how could I make them my priority if they are just acting like that everytime.Maybe I become a weird person but I dont mind. I hate being a person who always got the bad impression which made by those person who called their self as my own family or my closest person in life. Yes, they did help me and they keep that in mind that I have to pay back ( thats what i think ). I do really thanked them but if they have this way, it really bother me. Not like I dont want to pay all their kindness but I just cant deal with it. Untill one day I got a statement that a family relation could be broke cause I couldnt grant 1 of their wish.  Really embarassing isnt it? No? well yeah it does for me!!

I do love to laugh and get socialize with people even not always and people thought that I have my own exclusive group of friends. But the real is I dont. Just felt like I stand to a place where I dont belong to.

Now,I have more complicated life, more problems but also more challenge, more opportunities and I do sense some of luck try to grab me send from above....

Well, have a nice life to whom who had made my life miserable but also made my life more colorfull...

Cheers,
Sera

Definition Of Miss

Theres a lot definition of Miss... Here some the definition

• fail to perceive or to catch with the senses or the mind; "I missed that remark"; "She missed his point"; "We lost part of what he said"

• feel or suffer from the lack of; "He misses his mother"

• fail to attend an event or activity; "I missed the concert"; "He missed school for a week" 

• neglect: leave undone or leave out; "How could I miss that typo?"; "The workers on the conveyor belt miss one out of ten" 
  

• fail to reach or get to; "She missed her train" 
  

• be without; "This soup lacks salt"; "There is something missing in my jewelry box!" 
  

• girl: a young woman; "a young lady of 18" 
  

• be absent; "The child had been missing for a week" 
  

• a failure to hit (or meet or find etc) 
  

• fail to experience; "Fortunately, I missed the hurricane" 
  

• a form of address for an unmarried woman 

Now, I want to talk about definition point 2. Which happened to almost everybody in this enitre universe ( including me , lol ). This feelings wont chose from which tribe u were, what skin u have, what sin u ve done, what job u have, how pretty u are... It just came suddenly and wont give us any excuse whether we would accpeted it or not.

Even the person we missed were in the other side of this world but this fellings wont colide with any other fellings we have. One thing for sure to overcome this "sickness" just meet the person we miss. Or atleast catching up through any other media such as voice or maybe emails.

I would like to say that this feeling is one condition of  Love. Love has various factors, untill now we couldnt describe what Love is. ( for me especially I cant literaly describe the meaning of love from any other side or even with any other language even my own mother lang.

So I just love to say that one condition show that u when u re falling in love is when u miss someone and want to be with him more than any other you ever want in this world.