Being An Orphan Child

Being an orphan child sound hard and some people thought that it must be a very sad condition ever.

But since I was 13 which mean when I lost my dad after a year before my mum passed, it was some new condition for me. My journey started when I should have lived with my single aunt continued with I had to deal and lived with my step mum and her family.

I knew what it felt being dumped, told that I was a trouble maker and most but not very least treated like no one really needed my existence. I was told that I was a drug user and the most painful was the one who said it was my family which I used to trusted them much. And all of sudden many members of my family gave me a really bad image. But again, does that bother me ? well, yes a Bit... just some couple of time, then I forgot it everything they had done to me. But I was came up with the condition that I don't want to be near them all. So untill now, I won't came to any of their gathering even they had trying to be nice at me. Why I won't take their invitation ? coz it's all fake. And I don't like any camouflage in whatsoever reason. It just not wright or me, even 1 who made by family.

But all of that had made me strong and tough enough to face any problem. Even sometimes I can not resist the hugh emothion inside me.

My hubby told me many times that I don't know what it likes having family, how the connection that u built among ur family members. But, one thing I do know that I knew how it feels living alone and being abandoned by peoples around me.

Does that made me sad ? Fortunately the answer is a big NO.... u all know why? because I am very grateful with what God already gave me. Even some people told me that He is unfair coz He took my parents early but I do still grateful cause of that, maybe if my parents still here with me, I am still a spoil  litte brat. Maybe I do know what it likes being independent, and maybe I won't be like I am now.

Eventhough sometimes I have to deal with people which sometimes their needs was against my will. But that taught me how to appreciate others so does they will appreciate me. Well, I don't mean to make other bow at me. Beside living in harmony is really beautiful.

So being an orphan on ur early age wasn't bad enough. You just have to take all the positive and the good side. And acted that all the bad and negative side as a lesson which take u to the new role and created the great you.

Cheer's

Sera

Seriously?? U can't even do that at one time ?????

One thing I know, that life not always beautifull like it should be.

I asked myself, why do I life in the middle of lingering people. What does those people think, when they are working with the imbisile kind of way. Very slowly, lack of speed , less of thought, cant even do many work at one time. This kind of person really , I meant really bothering me at all time.

I wanted to yell out loud at time, Pleassse for once in your life time do something quickly and accurately... But again, since they got very less speed so, I am yelling again to an empty air.

Another thing that bothering me lately was a connection between man and woman. If  John Gray could decided that Man are from Mars and Woman are from Venus, then I should make other statement. That even both woman and man came from different planet but for some reason they meant to be together. No matter they separated by distance, age, character, family line, job type, religion, tribe or even personality, status. They could be together as long they take everything seriously.

Back to first paragraph which I wrote about seriousness, this thing is really important in every aspect of life. Either in personal side or even with job related.
Nowadays most people will appreciate person who capable those multitasking thing. Since everything run by online and the demand always rise according by time. So most people would like their employee work multitasking and fast.

So does in relationship, people nowadays not only looking for life partne who can cook or ironing their clothes, but also those who can be as a good teacher for their kids later, or as a work partner and even as secretary.

Again I won't blame myself because getting mad to people who can't do multitasking plus they who always working or do anythin in low speed. Because my demand is common nowadays and I am sure, pretty sure that my demand not only came from me but also came from other people who like working in smart, efisien and mostly love this multitasking thing..

Cheers,
Sera