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What happened with everybody lately... Everything went sooo weird a.k.a different. First thing first just thought maybe it caused by myself, or maybe something that appears on my surface.
Some are related with last year affair, so i can say it just the same shit and some are new.

Been dumped was one perfect sample. If you're been dumped by someone whom u hate it wont matter. But if u been dumped by someone whom u thought will always there when u need them that quite disappointing. Especially when u knew the reason that they had stabbed from your back. And u knew it after u feeling quilty almost every single day and every single minutes.

Got a thought,sometimes u take years to know people, like their character, habit, way of think but u just need few days to get over them. Well not almost everybody have the same thought like i did. But it works for me, and it really worth every penny .

A family stuff made me got emotional many times. This stuff way so annoying. I do prefer to life away from my family. I dont like the idea that mention family is everything. Coz they are way so disappointing me in every way.
I hate the condition that I do have bro and sister. They always want everything in their benefit but never care about mine.
And I do hate a statement said that family thing is always number 1 but how could I make them my priority if they are just acting like that everytime.Maybe I become a weird person but I dont mind. I hate being a person who always got the bad impression which made by those person who called their self as my own family or my closest person in life. Yes, they did help me and they keep that in mind that I have to pay back ( thats what i think ). I do really thanked them but if they have this way, it really bother me. Not like I dont want to pay all their kindness but I just cant deal with it. Untill one day I got a statement that a family relation could be broke cause I couldnt grant 1 of their wish.  Really embarassing isnt it? No? well yeah it does for me!!

I do love to laugh and get socialize with people even not always and people thought that I have my own exclusive group of friends. But the real is I dont. Just felt like I stand to a place where I dont belong to.

Now,I have more complicated life, more problems but also more challenge, more opportunities and I do sense some of luck try to grab me send from above....

Well, have a nice life to whom who had made my life miserable but also made my life more colorfull...

Cheers,
Sera