Being an orphan child sound hard and some people thought that it must be a very sad condition ever.
But since I was 13 which mean when I lost my dad after a year before my mum passed, it was some new condition for me. My journey started when I should have lived with my single aunt continued with I had to deal and lived with my step mum and her family.
I knew what it felt being dumped, told that I was a trouble maker and most but not very least treated like no one really needed my existence. I was told that I was a drug user and the most painful was the one who said it was my family which I used to trusted them much. And all of sudden many members of my family gave me a really bad image. But again, does that bother me ? well, yes a Bit... just some couple of time, then I forgot it everything they had done to me. But I was came up with the condition that I don't want to be near them all. So untill now, I won't came to any of their gathering even they had trying to be nice at me. Why I won't take their invitation ? coz it's all fake. And I don't like any camouflage in whatsoever reason. It just not wright or me, even 1 who made by family.
But all of that had made me strong and tough enough to face any problem. Even sometimes I can not resist the hugh emothion inside me.
My hubby told me many times that I don't know what it likes having family, how the connection that u built among ur family members. But, one thing I do know that I knew how it feels living alone and being abandoned by peoples around me.
Does that made me sad ? Fortunately the answer is a big NO.... u all know why? because I am very grateful with what God already gave me. Even some people told me that He is unfair coz He took my parents early but I do still grateful cause of that, maybe if my parents still here with me, I am still a spoil litte brat. Maybe I do know what it likes being independent, and maybe I won't be like I am now.
Eventhough sometimes I have to deal with people which sometimes their needs was against my will. But that taught me how to appreciate others so does they will appreciate me. Well, I don't mean to make other bow at me. Beside living in harmony is really beautiful.
So being an orphan on ur early age wasn't bad enough. You just have to take all the positive and the good side. And acted that all the bad and negative side as a lesson which take u to the new role and created the great you.
Cheer's
Sera
