Your Shape Isn't Your Personality

Woman ussually will do everything to get a very nice shape. And they will take any medicine or any treatment to get it. Sometimes some of them forget about their age, their health or does the shape they wanted is really fit into their body.

They will love skip dinner, a very delicious food esp dessert, staying at gym for a day, drink any medicine that they believed it will make them slim.

Do they realize that they tortured themself by doing that? 

Do they even know that those action they did will effect their health?

Do they even think the reason why they want slim body like those models?

Here's some reason why women love to diet.

True Love

Great Job

Wonderfull social network

But lemme remind you something about those three,

True Love : a man who really in love with you never notice ur body, they will look into ur eyes and trying to read what is in ur heart. Beside, if a man look into ur body , means they just want having you for fun, not to grow old with. Anyway those beautifull body will gone when u getting older.

Great Job : If you wanted to be a prostitute , maybe your body will count. But if u want to have decent and great job as like in a good company, they wont need your beautifull body. All they need just your smart brain and wonderfull skills. If dont have those two... maybe u can be a model, but a model has a limit. And when u getting older, the agency will ditch you as soon as they can.

Wonderfull social network : if u looking for a great friends or great social network all they need from u just fun and be a good listener, and some of the network will love you much if u are rich. But nothing to do with your body.

I think women should be have great personality , which it can't be made ( except u are a psycho, who have double personality ) and a great inner beauty that wont last even u grow old.

 I just think, what a poor those women who will do anything to get their body in shape in order to get what they want without notice that there other factors that will help them and it wont torture them.

Come on girl, you will love yourself more if you have an excellent health other than great shape.

2nd day of December 2010

Have u ever heard "feeling lonely in a crowded place?"

A friend told me that she envy me coz my perfect life... But hey no one life would be perfect ...

Despite that, Ive been surrounded by so many friends and I have a very big family.. But just some of them notice that I am alive or atleast notice that I am the same person like they are who need some urge to fill.

When the happiness came and shower me with everything let just say with wealthy and sometime healthy, they will LOVE spent their time with me.But once I got some problem even just a dot ( lol ) they will busy as hell...

So there, I have a very "wise thought", I dont want to get poor or sick. But after that I just can read who is the true friends of mine or who is my real family.

Since sometime, they asked me to understand about their problems and their needs, but there never be take and give ... I never hope about any kindness they will share with me in order to pay what I gave them.

But I just ( sometimes ) need their little help and that didnt related to wealthy factors.

People made mistake, so do I. And today I realize that I did it again ( oops ). But heck if  I dont made any mistake when I will learn about this, maybe I wont passed my exam ( lol ).

.....Just A Song.....

How Did I Fall In Love With You

Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, and I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble

I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

Bridge:
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew

How did I fall, in love, with you? 

That was a song sang by Backstreet Boys... Okay I am not a big fan of them but just find out that this song has a very romantic lyrics and easy to listen.
First time came in mind when I heard this song was a cute guy with a boyish look, very innocent and yes I did remember those time when I was teen. I am not a fan of those mellow songs but sometimes I do like to hear them.

This song got me thinking that sometimes to make someone yours was the most difficult thing to do.

Whether he or she had said that they  love u even at the first sight. But the condition and time could make everything changes. Even there was a commitment made. Still those other factor could trigger a relationship went last.

Little Secret About My Exs ( SsssSSSsssttt )

When I wrote Exs on my title y'all will think that I will talk about my exs boy friend.... Isn't it ?

Well, I won't talking about that exs wright now, but more to a new term that I got this noon while I joined the mess... 

We will familiar when people mentioned about their exs bf, ex gf, ex wife, ex husband, ex employee, ex boss, ex student, ex teacher, ex colleagues and etc. But have u familiar when I mentioned ex Bestfriend ?

Well, I really surprised when I found myself thought about it earlier and finally I decided to wrote it down here.

Several times I had very nice relation with some people. And several times to I lost it, I don't know either I am the one who can not maintained it or theres any other reason. But, before I write everything here, I should have tell u that I have this attitude or behaviour that I will go everytime I found something annoying, such as people around me who loved to make something radiant If I may say. And that maybe the number 1 reason why I can't never have a good companion other than my hubby. 

Last time I checked I just ended a nice relation with my exses was few months ago. I have 4 good fellow. They are had very various character. Only one who really attached with me ( or I attached with her ), and the other 3 was so - so but more to " a friend  in need and a friend in dead " if u got what I mean. 

This 1 fellow have lot's of thing similar to me, even in acted, style, way of think. So in the past 3, 5 years I just thought that she and I very looked a like.

I found her in a trouble that the truth is showed me who is she but I never thought negative bout her.

Untill 1 day, she wanted to get something and she wanted to use people so her will could came true.And it just ended it up to my name, and she blame me for something wasn't my fault. And that really made me way so upset. Since that I just withdrawed myself from them especially her, untill now.

The conversation keep going, gossiping still continuing but I always put some gap between her. In my eyes she no longer an innocent girl of anything, smart kind of way. In my eyes she just a girl who tried to look innocent to get what she want. No matter if her wish will destroyed people around her including her bestfriends.

And here goes the secret I wanna told you about, she does like this guy but since she has a very huge ego and high criteria about guys, so she always make a bait. And the bait always her very good friend ( uh oh not me ), and she will get the information bout the guy directly from her. 

Honestly I don't like her attitude but that none of my bussiness. Untill it was happened to myself and I decided to end that relationship. 

Some people will think that I am not a very good friend, yea maybe am but I also a human who can not live with fussy people who love to take advantages from their own friend.

Cheers,

Sera

Being An Orphan Child

Being an orphan child sound hard and some people thought that it must be a very sad condition ever.

But since I was 13 which mean when I lost my dad after a year before my mum passed, it was some new condition for me. My journey started when I should have lived with my single aunt continued with I had to deal and lived with my step mum and her family.

I knew what it felt being dumped, told that I was a trouble maker and most but not very least treated like no one really needed my existence. I was told that I was a drug user and the most painful was the one who said it was my family which I used to trusted them much. And all of sudden many members of my family gave me a really bad image. But again, does that bother me ? well, yes a Bit... just some couple of time, then I forgot it everything they had done to me. But I was came up with the condition that I don't want to be near them all. So untill now, I won't came to any of their gathering even they had trying to be nice at me. Why I won't take their invitation ? coz it's all fake. And I don't like any camouflage in whatsoever reason. It just not wright or me, even 1 who made by family.

But all of that had made me strong and tough enough to face any problem. Even sometimes I can not resist the hugh emothion inside me.

My hubby told me many times that I don't know what it likes having family, how the connection that u built among ur family members. But, one thing I do know that I knew how it feels living alone and being abandoned by peoples around me.

Does that made me sad ? Fortunately the answer is a big NO.... u all know why? because I am very grateful with what God already gave me. Even some people told me that He is unfair coz He took my parents early but I do still grateful cause of that, maybe if my parents still here with me, I am still a spoil  litte brat. Maybe I do know what it likes being independent, and maybe I won't be like I am now.

Eventhough sometimes I have to deal with people which sometimes their needs was against my will. But that taught me how to appreciate others so does they will appreciate me. Well, I don't mean to make other bow at me. Beside living in harmony is really beautiful.

So being an orphan on ur early age wasn't bad enough. You just have to take all the positive and the good side. And acted that all the bad and negative side as a lesson which take u to the new role and created the great you.

Cheer's

Sera

Seriously?? U can't even do that at one time ?????

One thing I know, that life not always beautifull like it should be.

I asked myself, why do I life in the middle of lingering people. What does those people think, when they are working with the imbisile kind of way. Very slowly, lack of speed , less of thought, cant even do many work at one time. This kind of person really , I meant really bothering me at all time.

I wanted to yell out loud at time, Pleassse for once in your life time do something quickly and accurately... But again, since they got very less speed so, I am yelling again to an empty air.

Another thing that bothering me lately was a connection between man and woman. If  John Gray could decided that Man are from Mars and Woman are from Venus, then I should make other statement. That even both woman and man came from different planet but for some reason they meant to be together. No matter they separated by distance, age, character, family line, job type, religion, tribe or even personality, status. They could be together as long they take everything seriously.

Back to first paragraph which I wrote about seriousness, this thing is really important in every aspect of life. Either in personal side or even with job related.
Nowadays most people will appreciate person who capable those multitasking thing. Since everything run by online and the demand always rise according by time. So most people would like their employee work multitasking and fast.

So does in relationship, people nowadays not only looking for life partne who can cook or ironing their clothes, but also those who can be as a good teacher for their kids later, or as a work partner and even as secretary.

Again I won't blame myself because getting mad to people who can't do multitasking plus they who always working or do anythin in low speed. Because my demand is common nowadays and I am sure, pretty sure that my demand not only came from me but also came from other people who like working in smart, efisien and mostly love this multitasking thing..

Cheers,
Sera

A Reflection

One day, there is a girl with a brown eyes shape like almond, fair skin, pink lips, dark hair , average body ( took it from myspace lol ), she was 25 years old... She was staring out her window and think... While her hand playing with her book. A very classic one with a brown old cover and italic font.

It was a beautifull sunday morning. The sky is bright whil the bird was chirping and the wind was blew softly.... Her neighbour Ms. Clark was doing her garden, while her dog Sluppy were running along her son Tody to their front porch.
While she was thinking and smilling all by herself., she remember what happened last weekend when she and her group of  book club went to the beach. She knew that this guy was new. And he doesnt even have a very fair skin or atleast a cute face. But, when she just got to her room that night, she cant even forget about his voice especially his laugh.

And after the night over she cant even think about anything else other than prepared to work so she will look stunning as ever. And she even humming on her way to tube station. Despite that she really made anything looked like a coincidence. So that she can always be in the same place like he does.
Either she went to a copy room or she just passed through his desk, but she just made everything looked way so  ussual.
Untill one fair thursday she happened to have a lunch with her mate and his mate. So does she could talked and spent her lunch hour with him.

That sunday morning made her rethink all over again. Does she had falling again to the other guy that she didnt supposed to be? Since she had a fiancee already and ready to tie the knot on August?
But this guy quite fun ( as for herself ) he could made her laughing everytime and whatever he did it always made her feel a butterfly had flying in her stomach.

He doesnt even have a car, or a branded clothes to wear. He doesnt even have muscle. He doesnt even have a cute lips... But she likes him ....If she made some comparison to her fiancee, this guy are totally nothing. But he looked like very polite and caring. But and then she thought... Every men will do anything to get to woman panties. Her fiancee also did the same by the time he wanted to be with her.

But on the other hand she likes it , and she doesnt wanted to lose it. And suddenly she staring out her desk and she found a classic black mirror and she saw her face. Quite cute, not bad  more to perfect she thought.
Inside the mirror she could see her other face with a smiley face , but wait... she didnt even smile. But the one in the mirror was smiley a very wide smile.

And then she realize that the confusion she had was made by herself..... And now all she could see just her reflection in the mirror that smile or even laughing in front of her. And she looked very happy because she saw her other half outside the mirror who got dizzy with problems which made by her other half inside the mirror...

Cheers,
Sera

Another Case ???

Last January I've passed one difficult phase of my life... and now it comes the other chapter. Its very quite similar. But happens with different object..

Hello.... can I have Just a Normal feelings here ??? or atleast Just a normal Life pleaseee???
It happens again and again... it likes an addict ... very buggin ...

Yesterday I looked to a tiny rainbow... and it was very beautifull at the moment...And till now still wondering should I follow the path of the tiny rainbow which dunno where it ends but 1 thing for sure it just have short way to go.

I dont want to be the one who make mistake all over again ( and I quote " The same mistake" )
Last time I had this, it really gave me a very huge sensation which I found very fun. But at the end  it also gave me another guilty wave.

One day, I just yelled and said STOP  ( followed with exclamation mark- I meant the very large one )... but again I picked the wrong way.

Hope I could say " Okay... Im done with it, so let me hae my own Vodka here and let me alone .." and then continued by " thank you "....

BFF ????

Where should I have to begin....

Have u heard bout BFF ? well I got a confusing meaning bout this lately. Does BFF should be stand for Best Friend Forever or Be Fucked Forever?

I do love to communicate with others, love to hear their stories but also I love to do this story-telling thing ( I got to carried away sometimes ), and the result is I have few people who always there when I need to do this story-telling and they love to share their life with me.

But, somehow I dont know when it begun, they acted like they have their own story among them and Im the only one who doesnt know any  it ( is this a sign that I have to leave them ?? ).

Do not care actually , but it become bothering me when they suddenlly came out to the surface without their mask, ( well her actually Im talking about one of my friend here ).

She is an angel when the first years I knew her but bang suddenlly she just change after I knew her for around let just say 4 years. I can read her but I just dont care bout her lack of  morality. She's my friend anyway, but she started use me as a shield from any problems that will save her but on the other hand will help her to get what she wanted.

It was sucks I know, but what can I do... that already her habit and her character. I do not care anyway.

The question is ... should I continue this BFF thing ( sounds weird I know ) but Im a good person on the other hand tho... lol

Well, all I can say now just BFF just stand for Be Fucke Forever if I still trying to understand those kind of people and getting involve with them.... Plus there's no such thing called BFF which stand for Best Friend Forever. Kinda full of narcissism I know ( thats what one of my exs called me, lol ) But for now on I think I dont need any best friend at all both man or woman ( I got fucked by them several times already ).

Cheers,

Sera

Now

What happened with everybody lately... Everything went sooo weird a.k.a different. First thing first just thought maybe it caused by myself, or maybe something that appears on my surface.
Some are related with last year affair, so i can say it just the same shit and some are new.

Been dumped was one perfect sample. If you're been dumped by someone whom u hate it wont matter. But if u been dumped by someone whom u thought will always there when u need them that quite disappointing. Especially when u knew the reason that they had stabbed from your back. And u knew it after u feeling quilty almost every single day and every single minutes.

Got a thought,sometimes u take years to know people, like their character, habit, way of think but u just need few days to get over them. Well not almost everybody have the same thought like i did. But it works for me, and it really worth every penny .

A family stuff made me got emotional many times. This stuff way so annoying. I do prefer to life away from my family. I dont like the idea that mention family is everything. Coz they are way so disappointing me in every way.
I hate the condition that I do have bro and sister. They always want everything in their benefit but never care about mine.
And I do hate a statement said that family thing is always number 1 but how could I make them my priority if they are just acting like that everytime.Maybe I become a weird person but I dont mind. I hate being a person who always got the bad impression which made by those person who called their self as my own family or my closest person in life. Yes, they did help me and they keep that in mind that I have to pay back ( thats what i think ). I do really thanked them but if they have this way, it really bother me. Not like I dont want to pay all their kindness but I just cant deal with it. Untill one day I got a statement that a family relation could be broke cause I couldnt grant 1 of their wish.  Really embarassing isnt it? No? well yeah it does for me!!

I do love to laugh and get socialize with people even not always and people thought that I have my own exclusive group of friends. But the real is I dont. Just felt like I stand to a place where I dont belong to.

Now,I have more complicated life, more problems but also more challenge, more opportunities and I do sense some of luck try to grab me send from above....

Well, have a nice life to whom who had made my life miserable but also made my life more colorfull...

Cheers,
Sera